Monday, December 14, 2015

Heyo new crowowowo

Sup man. Some interesting points you've made in the past hm. One track mind surely can be called ineffective, but consider this ;

evolve the one track mind

Same as a river can expand and swallow even more of the land in its path, same way one track mind can swallow even more, as long as you expand its boundaries

Instead of focusing on 1 champion/1 playstyle. If you expand it towards a broader idea : Whatever wins games ( how? whatever follows the effectiveness formula to the core, whats most coefficient with items/laning/matchups. Anything what loves you back, gives you reward for efforts you put it ( remember rifle style, it gives reward of constant domination ) Then you expand the one track mind aswell. In the end one track mind is the only and the ultimate tool you have, it is the pinnacle of competition

I just read back a year worth of posts, this blog sure is amazing. Its both fun and sad at same time. Not that much has changed over the course of this year, I should really start working harder lol!

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So far league things are like this:

Garen, Renekton, Darius                               Benched champions ( potential comeback ) : Aatrox

Theres no reason to ever not play Garen when it is soloQ match. Best soloQ champion. While darius and renekton require a team to actually 100% carry, but even in Q they do pretty good due to their harass and being hard to gank if played properly.

Pressure style and "wave plays" style is the best as it results in never ending pressure and if you cannot be dueled, you wont be stopped from scaling ( as you make a play,recall, make play ,recall, you are everywhere! )

Overstaying is gamble, but should be implemented back again if I do have sufficient enough sustain and wave is coming towards me or so. ( so I could freeze it till core item safely ), but its risky!! cuz in the end I'll have to push back somehow, requires advanced calculations!
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Tough questions to ask yourself everyday:

  1. Did you allow your fear/anxiety stop you from doing something today? why?
  2. have you been true to real self today? ( have you done everything you wanted/could )
  3. what will you do now?
  4. what about tomorrow?
  5. do you want to kick ass?
  6. You know your answers

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Anyway thanks blog and to whoever is reading ( I just checked the stats of visitors, hello Japan? thats new! Never had anyone from Japan visiting the blog ), its always heartwarming to checkout the amount of visitors blog gets, even though I suspect its mostly bots and ads LOL

See ya. And if anyone been wondering where I am gone, I actually have a private blog which I share, I post there mostly. ( for about 6 months already ) Though I should start posting here too, it really good way to shape up and sharpen my mind for the upcoming day
Cute pics started to grow on me ~~


Thursday, July 2, 2015

What I need

One track mind doseant work. Just training until you succeed on this one thing and setting everything up for it, it just doseant work. You run out of juice FAIRLY QUICKLY because you just over do it. Even if you didnt run out of juice, its actually not as effective as doing multiple projects at same time ( not too many though ), because you learn in more broad manner and find new inspiring things from other things. Brings in new fresh perspective and expands your ability.

So what I need is I need another project to fall in love with, build some more character, build onto myself more. This will help with the never ending anxiety, because my life will get much more busy and full of personal experiences from which I can scoope power for myself whenever I feel down about my lifes direction

I need some time to contemplate on this, what it should be. But I have some ideas. ( not terrible, cheesy ones as usual, over time I am becoming much more practical with my thinking )

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Why playing with ADC is better for your elo?


Ranged > meele for carrying. As you take less damage for the ammount that you do EASIER and in more sophisticated way.

+ if you lane bot lane you are the one responsible for the ammount of feed or feeding enemy ADC/support do. If you dont feed them or take them out all together = Enemy team cant really siege that easy and collect free win anymore. While if you are top and you take out your top laner tank 0 10, but their  bot lane is fed. They all will just stand in their fed ADC range and siege, and if you try to kill them, those 0 10 tanks still have same amount of CC to peel you off.

Fed tanks/bruisers/assasins/fighters , all of those can be dealt as ADC either solo, or with a support/ good items. ( lifesteal and minor defence/ good kiting/ flash etc ). You have more tools to waveclear and stall game, unlike from the top lane where if you try to waveclear you get all inned and die instantly LOL.


+ another mention is that, if they have fed assasins/tanks whatever. To kill your base and push you back from CS they have to all in you or catch you. Both of those can be avoided like I mentioned before. With meele champ you dont even have that as an option most of the time

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

be selfish be greedy to the point of reason!

YOU KEEP FORGETTING!!!

Team is only as strong as you are!  / not always, but need to give yourself and everyone else a chance to grow and get strong or else you all fall off late game!

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Saturday, May 9, 2015

after work weekend special ( not special at all )

Alright things im pointing out to fasten up my improving :


  1. Keep repeating the positioning to everyone ( how many flash ranges/steps )
  2. Dont say unnecessery empty information, exact quick calls/ exact time.
  3. Be clear when you lost lane/its out of control for now. BE VERY LOUD AND VERY CLEAR + SUPER WARD if you can.
  4. Repeat the positioning some more for the fights
  5. Multitask minimap and map activities alot harder. Its not like its hard, you just became lazy with it after stopped playing wc3. This way noone will feed me information which is false, ill get it by myself!
  6. Never ever SLACK OF or TAKE IT EASY/FUNNY WAY. Cuz it wont be even easy or funny, cuz you will die and you wil feed and it will be disgusting shitty game. To have fun and good game = try super hard and be militaristic as FUCKKKKKKKKKKK. Ying and yang mother fucker
  7. Slowly train zuone to stick to champs for more than 1 game, its just much better.

In short. Acquire perfect, precise 100% information myself ( or as much as I can ) , act according to it because I have ultimate knowledge and experience. Take one step above everyones ramblings and confusion and become the ultimate leader. Step up your game and teamfighting ( most important ). Must be able to win my lane and lane SOOO EASY AND GOOD that I could put tons of focus on controling my team. Not quite there yet, but something to strife for. ( its not like it will be needed like this forever, just need to make them play by the best plans so they dont learn all the wrong things during the practices ).

Really good song, subbing to all kinds of nightcore channels sure pays off. Blessings to all those posters, even with few hundred views only they upload good stuff : )

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Stuff from Julie : UPDATE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqUJdcCjUIA
Naked n Famous
Purity Ring
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbqcXnTt-7o

Friday, May 8, 2015

Garen :

  1. youmu BC or bruta BC, tanky tanky tank tank ( vs hard shit and forced into early fights, start reverse build )
Darius:
  1. pick axe into adapt ( pickaxe into randuins, maw, frozen mallet, hydra, last whisper, full tank )
Max hook as darius second or even first vs ranged bullshit ( 12 sec CD lvl 9 ) + run maximum CDR.

mb just always get frozen heart second or so shrug.

compare to effectiveness vs:

VS ::::

  • cassiopea with rylais
  • gnar with mallet
  • heca with tp smite
  • maokai tanky/sustain
  • malphite half ap n full tank
  • sion permapush
  • irelia
  • riven

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

What is a fighter?


  1. If not focused, wrecks you hard
  2. Hard to focus ( tanky, speed ups or escapes which same time help in his offence )
  3. Likes long fights
  4. Doseant die 1v1 to full damage champs, actually beats them and outscales them in 1v1 forever.

Garen can do all of these ( Yi too pretty much ), but can I make Darius do these things?
Must!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things to try:
  1. CDR again ( cleaver, youmu etc )
  2. Start tanky, mb only pickaxe for dmg ( frozen mallet style )
  3. lifesteals and tanky

Saturday, May 2, 2015

DAdadadadailyyyy yoooo




Darius, Master Yi, Garen
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  1. Staying true to my plans = OP
  2. Improve on laning, big time. Dont fear to not get kills and build defense. Whatever makes you do more damage.
  3. Focus on outfarming and out warding, freezing only until summoners up most likely is only worth way to freeze.
  4. Maintain the maximum kill pressure. ( frozen mallet if you have to or trinity + a freeze )
No defencive laning anymore. Gotta learn and practice abusing flash or whatever other summoners your pick to full 100% to keep getting some KILLS!!!!!!!!!!!! Like vs heimer, flash in through grenade insta gib, he is squishy, hook him back if u have to whatever. Learn faster combos

Friday, May 1, 2015

Daily schmaily


  1. I am tired TO HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL of running around following game flow, thats now how I ever was or ever enjoyed being. Thats the path of failure which life always takes me on for a while though.
  2. Come back to the roots, force my own technique. Both more fun and more effective, clear goals this way. Executing the ideas. ; ) FUN !!!!!!!!!!!! ATLEASTTT THAT, but its effective too
  3. Roots being, power split, power split, follow only contempt or make only plays with him. Get nexus or make teamfights happen at my top side, nothing else. And by follow contempt I mean being there same time, cuz realising the ideas.






Realise my top laning strategy, execute it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck all man

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

daily

Daily notes:

  1. stop spending money LOL, they dont grow on trees nigguh. Even if its not much, it will add up cuz the habit will only get stronger and keep on building up!!
  2. START PACKING SERIOUS FOOD TO WORK!!!!! shit, money spending becomes srs hard to fight when you are hungry !
  3. Garen, Yi , Darius. Just best trio for me man! Try realising and thinking about each match up with them, realise it to HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and focus on that, run simulations in your mind just like in wc3 days. This way those few free hours i got wont feel as that much of a waste and will have a fun exercise to do while free at work!
  4. Would be pretty neat if spared some morning time to go for a walk with Raina and work out some, not feeling worn out from work anymore ( thats actually not good, lets grow more! )
  5. Bring back some fresh/clean water bottles home, will come in handy.
  6. UPE UPE UPE UPE UPE UPE UPE! its time son
  7. Woad king Darius time? or Bioforge? Buy your self some SKILLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ 
  8. 2 garen 3 yi , 1 darius games. To catch up in matches played. DONT SWAY FROM THE SYSTEM AND GET BAITED BY TALON!! OR WUKONG. FUCK THOSE PIECES OF SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTt
  9. savaitgali gal bus laiko pamegink su dviraciu iki zemuju paneriu davaryt, see if it sworth!
  10. goodnight, labankt
good memories

Monday, April 27, 2015

ppppppppplan


  1. Play 3-4 more go4lols, do good
  2. Start messaging sponsors, be cocky as motherfucker can be LOL
  3. profit

btw su dviraciu reikia paplanuot ir surengti kaip cia i salininkus varyt ir is ten i darba ( pirmyn atgal! )


Sunday, April 26, 2015

What I've learned


  1. A lane without big kill pressure, is wasted lane. You are trimming your own chances of winning
  2. Don't get baited by "pro scene" or anyones advice to ever change your mind about point 1.
  3. Seriously picking no kill pressure and just lane power champs like Shyvana or so, is only worth if you plan on being defensive as whole team for 20-30 minutes, not gonna happen, too hard, too not worth = SHIT
  4. Gotta do a rotation when we spawn to ward from lane swaps ( very deep lane and jungle wards, and then wait covering river or whatever is left )
  5. If you get stronger and you got reliable engage/siege or summoners. Just go instantly as 5 to a lane and look for a fight. Why not, it just works, especially if you push down your lane and recall going in as lane gank position. ( you can do that cuz you are stronger )
  6. Don't forget to try to maximise your own usefuleness and damage in a teamfight, ABOLISH ALL of the heroic thoughts of sacrificial lamb
  7. Baits are always good, especially when you got Olaf head and other speed ups to get there real quick and surprise help. Camping behind ADC as he pushes a lane, why the fuck not, its pretty good, if they take the bait good for us, if they dont, atleast we are not revealing ourselfs for a while, might slow them down!
One day ill be not lazy enough to find that pika remix of this song. Reminds me of playing through pokemon games and reading pokemon genius or whatever that site was for tips and shit lol
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Darius  - aggro master, free ganker, delicate fighter.

Master Yi - ownage

Garen   - defence style master, POWER freeze , or POWER AFK push. Out trade once can finish them in 2 combos ( 1 combo , 1 dive or zone ) but focus freezing, getting big items and becoming POWERHOUSE                                  
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1. No flash, no mobas/swiftness = NO ROAMING EVER. PRessure instead or FREEZE AND FORCE THEM TO GROUP OR FIGHT YOU FOR CS!!!

2. FOCUS ON OUTLANING MY GUY 100% and OUT MAP CONTROLLING 100%, thats all what matters. DO THOSE BOTH!! BUILD FOR THAT TOO, ADAPT!!! USE BRAINZ

3. TEAM rotation, force things. Dont dive or anything ridiculous like that, just fight front line and WIN CUZ YOU ARE MUCH BETTER.

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Sunday, April 19, 2015

Goodnight, work time.
Initial D is love, Initial D is life!

1. Dont forget the credit
2. Learn to work faster, find some sleep time during work
3. 4 AM daily, for some extra training
4. Talk to team members some more about rotations, show it on the map through that one website! ( IMPORTANT)
5. Harold N Kumar time laters m8m8m8m8m8m8


no tears , no giving up, fuck it man!!!!!!!!!

Friday, April 17, 2015

ah fuk
i can plan all i want, but if when it comes to it my muse/inspiration is not there, it will all crumble. Emotional playstyles have such weakness. beatiful n fragile :/
.df,s.d,f.sd
did i just fool myself to accept it, its probably early to juddgeeg, Just sigh, would be nice if for one things would work out ONE TIME
just need to fall asleep somehow, test how it goes tommorow. Its too much after daily work to do anything requiring true focus and skill, guess ill have to do it early mornings then to keep in shape ; /.
just one of those weakness moments , lose focus for a bit, and loneliness overflows zzz\s\a\\a\a\

typing this sideways barely reachin keboard with finger tipzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzp

make me fade is playing, its nice that i posted it here before, always reachable quickk

worst part is that its not even that hard of a job, just all those hours drains the expression pwoer by the evening
Its jUST NOT THERE! i cant pull it out, i feel like ocnsuming and spending money to compensate for the lack of that inspiring feeling ( how many peps dooo )
really depressing to realise how unnatural this is to me, really makes u want to end it all

sure im being really overlydramatic here, but its just all stacked up from years of similar happenings. Its never resolved problem ; 0

some years ago in situation like this, id easily get hyped up and pumped and do whhatever i can. nowadays i still try, but its so hard knowing you hjave tried so often and always faildedded

would be nice if Julie messaged me, listening to her day/stories or whatever would be neat. Need to get away from these negative thoughts nad focus on the nextd ay!!!

im grown so insensitive to failure, i dont know.... its terrible to not mind losing everything

how do i make this all into my own personal adventure and harvest the power of youthfulness, s omuch unneccesery trouble





Nah man u r just tired, try to sleep. Try tommorow. yes yes i will. Today you deserve some rest, + work can be done better, faster. You can get stronger too. Not even close to prime strenght of what htis body is capable. I kno its hard to s leep now, i guess could just go out. You deserve a day off on friday atleast. Think about long term sustain of yourself. No rest is unsustainable, dont do that to yourself or you will be like your sisters who worked themselfs into hospital once or twice, its easier than you think : s ... Pro tip, rest isnt watching shitretarded videos or browsing 4chinz, thats time wasting.I regret reading that crappy thread about women today, christ. Useless negative ideas, feel them racking my brains already S:SA:SA:Sd

make yoursel fade from this room lol, gogogo

that actually made me feel a bit better, felt like crying before. Not tears crying, but crushing crying. Just sucks hard having your dream constanly being tramplled by your own incompetence . But nothing is ever easy for me i guess, i always chose wrong path first or first hundred times

ha remember when they used to call me "wise", its funny cuz all of that wisdom comes from repetetive personal failures. Being wise is actually a sign of a dumbass or ex dumbass ( uh oh trying to make myself sound a bit better lol )

ah Julie just messaged me, time to move on. Thx for listening blog, i really didnt want to rant out to anyone about this, i do it too often already. Its soo annoying, i dont want to others to feel like a blog, i want them to give and take and focus on bond build not just listen

see ya

Proper gameplay protocol

1. Tense/tired muscles = fail ( cant properly focus )
2. Feeling entitled to ANYTHING ( rest, good time, good plays, anything given to you easily ) = fail
3. Feeling special in any sort in general brings your own demise
4. Anything whats not focus on the present moment, only weakens you
5. Anything what you were yesterday or week ago, is gone and doseant matter, focus on what you are now
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Those are main causes of error, now for solutions :

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1. Absolute devotion to self expression of ones life ( lack of outside entertainment, lack of hoping and wishing , just do things instead )
2. Read through the errors, and realise them as truth
3. Dedicated a specific amount of time to simply focus, dont just jump into the action
4. Proper warm up ( stretch, aim booster/multitask )
5. Nap if required ( no reason to go on without full dedication, waste of efficient time )


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To do:

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1. Rearrange/rethink builds and summoners for my playable champions. Maximum kill pressure, no fucking around. As an exercise do it against every champion, something to think about properly. ( copy it to the notepad, will take a while )
2. Do the warm up even if theres no gameplay incoming, keep body remembering and in shape. ( mostly keep your head in the game, yesterday you lost it, lost all focus so fast due to fatigue. Pathetic, do it properly!!!! )
3. Once proper warm up becomes a habit, its all smooth riding. Can initiate it any time, its all about efficiency for now.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

figuring out the most efficient style for yourself


1. Maximum kill pressure top/jungle synergy against enemy

Thats one and most undeniable choice we always make, and it is the best ultimate weapon, no change is required. Question is, how to fully utilise that advantage to grab wins?

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Some notes firstly :

  • Not an assassin
  • Not a sieger
  • If build for diving = throw away all advantage for ability to stay alive 2 seconds longer. ( though if freeze with LW only and build tank, with ganks any tank would still die, just 1v1 would take much longer and would really be only possible with a redbuff/mallet vs Nasus/maokai )
  • Literally all I am is a tank killer.
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With that in mind, how to maximise my tank killing potential throughout the game. How to really take them all down good?

  1. Cleanse,ghost,heal, flash. Those will help maneuver through the front line, and "kite back" If I have higher movespeed than enemy ADC, and high enough movespeed to keep on dodging APC/Supps bullshit spells, I automaticaly dodge most of their damage + get to abuse my Q's range.  LESS RELYING ON NOOB PICK OFFS. 
  2. A Support made to do damage/Hard anti CC/EXTREME CC . Theres no time for single target reliable stuns or hooks, those require strong use of early lanes push power and ward control. You wont be doing that, you will be freezing and denying, owning and doing quick roam. 
  3. Catching/Engaging on a tank or support is always fairly simple, especially with good jungler. What comes after is we abuse our sick bruteforce to take them out all one by one. The more bruteforce we have on each single champion, the less delicate we have to play, and the less of our combos each single person will have to use to take out their support/tank = Save more for their ADC/APC = once they move in to assist, they are done.
Thats it, most reliable teamfighting. Thats what I should focus on, and what I should improve on. Not on catching noobs, that doseant improve my teamfighting skill. ( nor does it improve teams )

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Some comp ideas:

Darius,Volibear,Annie,Jinx,Velkoz/Zyra.

Most important Velkoz/Zyra or possibly Karma. Other mid options could be ; Brand, Syndra, Zilean, Orianna, Katarina, Leblanc, Malzahar, Veigar , Viktor, Cassiopea, Chogath, Zed, Mordekaiser. Noone else has same ammount of damage early on.

Other supports could be : Sona, Soraka ( fortrify our front line holding or vs Assassins ) ,  Morgana , Leona ( save ur CC for when the carries try to help their tanks, stop them ) , Alistar ( same as leona ) ,  Janna and Braum ( improve brawling by SPECIFICALY picking this to block some of their abilities/cancel them. If you cant do that, you just wasted a pick ), Thresh ( chain CC after an engage on a tank. Hook in, fly in, flash flail onto enemy carries and give us the lantern to follow them to stop their damage, otherwise useless )

Thursday, April 9, 2015

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5RUDy9fsBM

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

Saturday, April 4, 2015

Day ANE

little racer STREET, still beasting. ( develop my own driving style which i feel confident with, dont rush headless into each corner for maximum cut each time, fucking sux to go on like that, takes too much time to beat Sysgen like that too )

1. fix up that bike, see wasup. Need that for work ( DONT FORGET !!! )
2. Savaitgali Artas nori hangout, would be nice to play some genesis shrug shrug
3. Drawing was always fun, but now that im totaly drained of any inspiration, might aswell go and find some new fun ways to draw, even if it means copying some stuff just for reference sake ( its more fun to have some solid background before unleashing personal taste onto something, otherwise you end up crawling around in mud only! )

would be cool to find some simple, yet fun looking things to try to copy. ( darius axe, shadow leggy's stuff, lol's fanart etc )

Not like i got anything better to do when im resting/waiting for matches. Internets too toxic for me, rather indulge in simple hobbies





1. KOTOR etc

Friday, March 27, 2015

http://myanimelist.net/manga/670/Bokurano
http://myanimelist.net/manga/5709/Litchi%E2%98%86Hikari_Club
http://myanimelist.net/manga/964/Warau_Kyuuketsuki
http://myanimelist.net/manga/9057/Shoujo_Tsubaki



http://mangafox.me/manga/litchi_hikari_club/v01/c001/1.html

http://anilinkz.tv/saenai-heroine-no-sodatekata-episode-11



http://mangafox.me/manga/narutaru/v01/c001/5.html

http://www.mangareader.net/182-11737-8/bokurano/chapter-1.html

http://mangafox.me/manga/20th_century_boys/v01/c001/11.html

http://myanimelist.net/anime/6114/Rainbow:_Nisha_Rokubou_no_Shichinin


http://mangafox.me/manga/oyasumi_punpun/v01/c001/7.html

Mousou Dairinin ( paranoia agent )


http://myanimelist.net/anime/1943/Paprika

and in general anime movies, missed out and been to lazy to watch any of them really. Would be pretty cool to give them a shot tututu


Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Yes yes! League seems to work quite decent now, PC dont crash randomly, league doseant seem to bugsplat anymore oh yes! Good times incoming etc! Updated guides real quick to make them usable for me too! + gonna further upgrade it now that I m back in the game !

Sunday, March 22, 2015




Harem anime sure is fun. That + staying up all night and just giving yourself occasional micro nap to snuggle in your soft nice smelling bed. Its nice to let go and feel cute sometimes. Today is my birthday, its funny that in the past I'd be all edgy and make jokes about how pathetic I am for spending my birthday like this, but you know the biggest and most important lesson I think, that I didn't just learn, but realised deep inside through my whole existance, is to stay true to yourself and whatever makes you happy. It took me very long time, because of how stubborn and oblivious I tend to get sometimes, took very long time to realise how much of a pushover I was. My first and only relationship really helped me realise this. Because It was my first I was so excited to be the very best I could be, without realising I chopped myself into tiny pieces as time went on. Hey you, lonely reader out there, relationship only will be a magical cure which you imagine it to be, only if you stay 100% true to yourself! It may seem cruel and rude, but to make relationship work both have to be fully devoted to themselfs and be greedy to some degree. "selflessness" and "sacrifice" has no place in relationship. (as in own selfs sacrifice, material and other bullshit like time etc, ofcourse!).

Ha benefits of knowing russian, some VN's which are not english patched have russian patch instead. Funny stuff. Never realised it would be handy in this way. Only another great lesson to keep in mind, cherish what you have! Anyway I'll be slowly making comeback in League of Legends now. My current gaming set up seems to make me crash with bug splats quite often, but I'll manage somehow. Time to skill up and work hard! Btw I cleaned up those unneccesery guide pages for league cuz fuck it guys, champ specific guide is more of a build, i think ill rehash all of them and just focus on single page for laning and general game flow ( it wil lbe handy for me this way aswelll ) kek

If you are interested in pretty fun VN, id say try out moero downhill nights 2. I havent played the other 2 yet, but this one is just fun. I guess anything with some competition and some freedoms just has special place for me

Anyway just good songs blasting pretty good morning, snow sunlight uhuthuhtuhthut! Big plans on my mind, but ofcourse they will vanish, mb

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Master Yi
Darius
Garen
Mordekaiser
Talon
Fiora
Wukong
Urgot
Renekton

Keep working on whats perfect.

Its a moving target


1st move trap
2nd move finisher

 OR EVEN MORE AND MORE ADVANCED!


1. ask yourself a tough question
2. WARM UP HARD
3. WORK OUT SUPER HARD
4. NO TIME WASTING PLS MAKES U CRY INSIDE
5. FOCUS ON URSELF FOR SOME TIME ATLEAST!
6. EAT AND DRINK TONS. MILK STYLE?


PRETTY COOL THINGS ( WHICH U FIND COOL SO U WANAN DO IT )

1. RUNNING / STRENGHT TRAINING. JUODSILIU BEGIMAI WIN IT LOL
2. ESPORTS IN RL
3.
4. HARMONICA MUSIC SKILLS or MORE
( BUT ACTUALLY DO THINGS GREAT LIKE Wc3 LIKE DREAMS ) IM BORING ALREADY SUXXXXXXXXXXXX
5. poker?






harmonica music skills
eyes



auto Q hydra Scimitar auto W R
[11:02:58 PM] crowjambouuuuu: if scimitar does reset
[11:03:01 PM] crowjambouuuuu: then it should be instant


Urgot combo E + R ( STUN AS GRENADE IS FLYING )


all the effort is pointless if you dont believe in yourself




concentration + focus training       +  predetermined techniques which you trained. Focus to boost what you know 20x
  most effective tool!

beertech linkomanija

art of war again

http://www.ibraining.com/
http://www.kongregate.com/games/icylime/multitask
http://www.aimbooster.com/

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Quick note

Archive the conversation with contempt about league strategy/game ending by 20min. The rotation seems pretty strong

^ according to that plan update one runeset, possibly more ad  ( think about MU like tryndamere, need a bit earlier boost instead of movespeed ( make it 2 MS quints and switch glyphs? + some marks + start long sword )

Olafs head , dont forget to add that to item sets once PC is available. Possibly get it after a pick axe or two vs squishy lane ( if hard frozen domination mode is active ) But only for that !! not just because!

Dont forget about the, more AD + doran stack way of VS irelia. The forceful all in style of this build path will be beneficial ( just test its spikes first ) for the 20min style!

Yeah and just practice laning with long sword + 3pots more, but get flask afterwards ( but only if worth ) , its becoming more and more just a comfort choice, but not really most effective choice ( same way 21 tech was comfy, but weak in the end )

Push to the limits, cuz 20min game end is pushing it to the limits. Dont opt out to comfy mid late only

Thursday, March 5, 2015

hm

"I believe every word he said, because its exactly what I wanted to hear"

Sounds legit to me. For past couple of years spent alot of times on different and quite radical communities on both left and right or whatever side and well really people come to those communities not to learn something new, but to fit in really, they already have their minds made up on whats wrong and right ( more or less ) and just tend to believe almost anything that that community shoves down their throat and only sink deeper and deeper... Have to be cautious not to let yourself fall into something like this, its so EASY SOO EASY to fall into this SOOO EASY. Only solution is not to ever be a part of anything ;DD, cave your own path i guess



Mind truly is the devil, ultimate cause of any psychotic behaviour. It ruins itself without human interference. Mind and body both only want to keep indulging in whatever "feels good" eventually dragging you down so deep that it becomes normal/acceptable or whatever, you catch my point theres many variations etc etc, but same cause for this effect. In some sense it resembles bible teachings, the spirituality and acting above your mind and reason which in end leads to better results and more control of self and your hapiness / true personal knowledge or enlightment. While devil " the mind " is the seducer of all what leads you to being rotten. But its good that bible and religion was dropped and became rather irrelevant in modern age, it was too controlled and misunderstood. Only when theres lack of it, the need for it will come forth and you will really learn the lesson and its meaning. I GUESS


Btw just gotta love this picture haha

LOL

So I guess me being paranoid was kind of true hahahha : D. I was bored and checked traffic sources, theres actually link to this blog on russian wc3 community page. Pretty funny pretty funny.

Anyway gotta stay focused, keep the dream alive! Hopefuly I can get a working computer for league of legends soon and start training again!

I saw someone read warrior quotes post, thank you for reminding me of it! I love to read through it whenever I remember of its existance. Heres some of the quotes which directly inspire me all the time :

"In the beginners mind there are many possibilities, but in the expert's mind there are few" - Suzuki ( Im actually writting this from bottom to the top. Dont get baited by your curiousity, its DANGEROUS FOR YOUR OWN WELL BEING!!! STick to a thing, and make it YOURS by the ammount of time/effort/creativity you pour into it. Things dont matter, champion/unit who cares! What matters is your personal flavour which you pour into something over the months/years. Thats what makes a thing unique and beautiful to see! )

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness. Nothing is so gentle as real strength." - Frances de Sales. ( TRUE WISDOM MY NIGGA )

"I worshipped dead men for their strength, forgetting I was strong." - Vita Sackville-West ( Never devalue yourself and your personal life. You only need yourself to really be happy and move forward. Not some kind of inspirational movie or whatever bullshit )

"Where do you begin? Perfect is a good place to start. We must always focus on improving things that are already perfect." - J. Viol  ( dont get baited by your curiousity to drop what you are good at in pursuit of goofy shit. The most beautiful things are things you spent most time at )

"Only one who devotes himself to a cause with his whole body and soul can be a true master. For this reason, mastery demands all of a person."

"When you aim for perfection, you discover it's a moving target." - Unknown ( Don't devalue whats good, drop it and search for new cooler things. Please dont do that. Choose something, commit and work hard, its never ending ride. Things become beautiful only if you give it enough of your time, energy, thought. Not because its some new wacky cool idea )

"All men can see these tactics whereby I conquer, but what none can see is the strategy out of which victory is evolved." - Sun Tzu ( yeah this, don't look down on yourself like I did for winning by outstrategising/outpreparing against an enemy. They can't just copy your replay and win same way you did, first of all they dont have all the same experience and thought put into all of it, its impossible to just recreate you blindly. Dont devalue your victories! )

"He who knows when he can fight and when he cannot, will be victorious." - Sun Tzu

"The good fighters of old first put themselves beyond the possibility of defeat, and then waited for an opportunity of defeating the enemy." - Sun Tzu  ( literal bloodmage + paladin RIFLES SHIT LOL + TOWER TECH ) I am sun tzu right guise ? :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I have a very annoying habbit of when I am doing good at something or learned a way to play and win games consistently, of just DROPPING IT INSTANTLY / Moving on to something new. My sense of strenght/power is really confused, if things go smooth  I feel like I've cheated and didn't deserve to win, but thats my insecurities which I must learn to overcome! What quotes say is true, true power is gentle and I really need to get it through my skull. I am too inspired by  all the fucking movies to constantly be in a brawl or victory isnt victory ( thats dumb )




Wednesday, March 4, 2015

DONT INDULGE

pretty good channel etc.
Oh yeah nice surprise, the part with clannad !! cheered me up good

DONT INDULGE DONT INDULGE DONT INDULGE DONT INDULGE DONT INDULDGE


if you aint living your day feeling true joy and just possitive happiness shining from inside, then shits wrong and you re wasting your own time!! not good man, but the clannad song sure cheered me up good damn, can feel glimpses of it when i sink in nostalgy kek ; D

but srsly, bad habbits and bad life decisions made you accept the "meh" or "fine" as standart for your everyday life. Remember when you were like 10 n shit, wake up = instant fucking joy, rush out do things GOOD SHIT. Reminds of wc3 training days too quite often and even when playing league in good ways damn man ( remember the lan , was fucking great at parts haha ) Ah even writing and remembering all of this is pretty damn great, im glad i did this ( kind of paranoid these days of people reading my blog as it is afterall on the internet, even had a nightmare recently that someone is quoting thing sfrom here somewhere and making fun of me lol, quite waste of time but sure watever )

Friday, February 27, 2015

ukuku

rather check dis out

with the old rig im rebuilding new games are basicaly out of it, not a big deal really, theres sea of TOO GOOD old games out there + some emulated new ones on DS/GBA.

1. personas
2. check /vr/ for ideas
3. tohou once again
4. whatever arcady 100% gameplay, because its just fun man, gotta give them a chance
5. chrono cross



SAVANORIU 31 for rams
SAVANORIU 59 for biblioteka

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Next time I'm bored

( OR JUST GO OUTSIDE LOL FUK U )

ME2 ( this time don't forget the DLC chars lol )
Bully
Mb give sleeping dogs a chance or saints row
Unreal tournament 04, always good times. Full scrubs team this time kek?
GTA5 soon, same for the new metal gear
Virtual piano
Cave story ( dont let her die this time )
Some sort of swat game always is nice
Check your steam games, mb little racer
SA doriftos
Dragon quest, suikoden or whatever GBA rpgs there are, always good man ( cozy too )

best would be to pass up on replaying

and ofcourse evaluate what you actually have in your current life, to not accidently hurt those around you who actually care in the slightest instead of moping and feeling alone. Dont devalue others!

motivational pics:

was pretty good movie, mmm memories


YOU DIDNT SAVE HERRRRRRRRR


Monday, January 19, 2015

Small tipserinos

GOD THE FUCKING REDDIT IS GETTING TO ME with all the *rino endings in my head now


Good mix just to get out of the way
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Some people are always questioning my LAST WHISPER as first item builds and when they try it, it just flat out sucks and they die. Well let me explain how last whisper first works and how items in general work, and I am writing this to kinda cement it into my own brains ans I often get carried away and do the same mistake! : -------------

Tank stats are SUPER STRONG in full ALL IN, their weakness is if a person is walking away from you, you won't kill them / there's LESS CHANCE of killing them

What last whisper gives you is not all in power against armored / healthy champs, I mean it does more or less,, but not straight up. See it gives you power to actually have effective harass and effective damage against armored target, but the effective health / damage from sheer base damages and abilities they have is TOO HIGH at 1 item point. There's no way you will kill a sunfire 1st DPS champ with Last whisper first if you both just stand and duke it out, you will though if you have either some minor resistance yourself like a chainvest to absolutely nulify their base damages into the ground OR having range advantage. Like lets say Darius has his Q, even if they build armor you can pop few Q's on them and they have nothing anymore, they are done. + Darius naturally has crazy burst for early game, so even if people buy armor and health it wont be enough, their natural DPS can barely match it no matter how much defence they buy. I even bursted 4k HP udyrs in 2 seconds with Darius, its no joke! ( thats with infinity edge though ROFL )

Anyway TL; DR being = Last whisper gives you kill potential,  but it leaves you open to death aswell. Don't underestimate base damages early game ( pre 3 items ) You have <1000 HP early game and most spells do over 150 pretty much starting rank 2. Be careful, if you die to tank and lose lane, you can't farm anymore and lose game for your team RIGHT AWAY BY YOURSELF.

One of the good combos for lets say beating a nasus is Last whisper + thornmail combo. Get chainvest inbetween last whisper if he isn't building defense ,but went for sheen or so. Nasus early all in is no joke with maxed spirit fire.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Shout out to all the viewers

I kinda vented few days ago and deleted everything except league and my notes of course , I'm much better now and gonna keep working on my skills and the guides! Just wanted to say thanks for whoever keeps visiting this site, I very often check the traffic sources and everything and it just constantly amazes me that someones actually paying a visit to this horrible grammar, half misspelled blog. Yeah that's about it, just wanted to say: thanks strangers, appreciate it : )

If you are interested in my match history I did add the OP.GG link on the bar below the Title/logo of the site, can see some of the builds I use etc + if you catch me live on OP.GG you can click on spectate and watch me automatically + it records, its pretty neat system they have there

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Oh right

Anyway it's time for me to stop playing around, living in a bubble of moderate comfort for a while and letting inner child take over and just be curious about things and "express" myself was fun while its lasted. Some progress was made, but in the end gotta move up and go ahead.

Everything is on halt 98% , deleting everything as I write this to pose me no distractions and not tempt me into dumb ideas. Damn I get easily swayed into bullshit, remember kids its only worth doing things you are good at or are willing to sacrifice years to be good at, otherwise its all meaningless pile of crap which will just die out as your interest slows down.

I'll still fill in some last blanks and occasionally post some as this website in general was made for my personal use,  I just enjoy writing it in a way that others would understand, because its harder this way and you learn more if you can teach your ways.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Upcoming things

This is more or less a note to myself to not forget!


  1. refurbish the league guides ( split the laning tips into whole new, standalone guide applicable for all champs, but leave the champion specific tips on the champion guide + this will give me more space to improve the tips for each champion! )
  2. once done the above post it on reddit, see what happens?
  3. with that done can post other champ guides without much worry, as it will be much easier and enjoyable rather than slow and boring laning explanation each time
  4. spam the Talon icon as its so fucking sweet ( CHECK )
  5. try bandicam once again in the league of legends, this time reduce leagues graphics to lowest possible point and check the FPS. Make it WORK! need the videos! cant accept <60fps and unstable!
  6. encode and upload all the touge runs!
  7. this time film the touge races, all of them! eventualy someone wont crash and it will be upload worthy!
  8. beat the akina 2:53 record!!! with stock AE86 of course
  9. make the skyline grip run with infernus/modified skyline stock handling. ( on all touges )
  10. make wc3 audio commentary where I don't sound like im falling asleep or a snob ( lol )
  11. upload the one which is done already, its not too bad, worth for the end!
  12. wc3 audios from Jons/ferfes reps aswell not just mine and Cons!
  13. add ALOTTTTTTTTTTT MORE PICTURES IN THE CHAMP GUIDES. DONT BE LAZY
  14. Maybe add a guide to how I film and upload the videos, because I make exceptionaly low size and meh , but watchable quality vids fairly easily! maybe it would help someone ( it woulda helped past me pretty well )
  15. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptWnGA79xms try his lines and improve on them + ofcourse beat his time hard

Talon OriginalLoadingMercyMercyMercyMercyMercyMercyMercyMercy
TalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquareTalonSquare

I wouldn't have started playing talon if not for his icon/splash art haha

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Individuality

What makes a player/game fluent, beautiful and just worthwhile watching?

Well whenever I turn on a stream or a replay of someone or watch a drift video, I usually turn it off in less than a minute. Sure that is pretty closed minded of me and I realise that, but there's not point in watching someone playing something they have low ammount knowldge of. Not saying they are unskilled or do poorly or anything, but it is just so STALE and repetetive. Everything just becomes bland. I mean I can pick up any champion in league of legends and play it top lane. First games might feed, but on lets say third one I have a clue on how to lane without feeding and get cs. So many players do this and consider it "learned champion", while the same effort you just put into learning this champ could have been used to further advance one of your currently played champions. And if you dare to say that there is nothing to advance further then you are a noob and you are lying. Its alot harder to move further when you are good with something already, its much easier to pick up something what you are bad at and become decent. All those champion requests from the audience for the streamers, SO BORING! At first I was excited about the whole idea, oh wow they gonna show something great! But even the most skilled of streamer on a Master Yi or Darius performed so poorly, the plays were bland, nothing special was happening, they seemed extremely uncomfortable ( obviously ). Just so not beautiful and smooth. For long time I was a fool and I thought individuality is something on what you "decide" more or less, like the champion pick or the way you build or the car you drive. But it has absolutely nothing to do with it, it all comes from one simple thing = dedication / time spent on that one thing. Many people are alike when it comes to basic things, you cant define your own individuality with it, neither can you with basic terms or hobbies. Its not what you do, its how you do it obviously and the more time you spend on something the more you improve or change, the more doors and paths of left and right you take and eventualy they form you into completely different kind of players or person. Theres not a person in the world who will be exactly like you in a long term if you both tackle the goal of being the best at something ( or anything else ). At first there will most likely be alot of similarities, but slowly overtime even the most likeminded people will become so different and so beautiful in how they overtake their opposition.

 I used to be very basic when it came to things like these. You either play bloodmage or you suck and you are boring "cookie cutter". But after training and meeting some other bloodmage players, I absolutely disliked their playstyles and I thought of them how inefficient and wrong they were. I loved the core ideas and how different it was so I went onto improving it , my own way. But I was a fool like I mentioned before and never sticked to anything in particular, always only adapting to my enemies rather than forcing my own will on them. I didn't trust or believe in my self enough to do that. And if you can't do that, you can't be a champion. You can keep up, but even half a second means you are a loser and highly inferior. Tell yourself whatever you want, the final outcome is all what matters.

Anyway what this post is, its just a reminded to myself as I often go back and read these things, to hold on and make things my own way. That dosean't mean to be close minded, but don't spend whole days and weeks researching, it is fun and all at first, but later you will lose without dedicated training + without any distractions. What is the most fun thing is when you are fighting someone head on with your own grown strategy or style, even if its highly deranged from anything standart, it dosean't matter if its what you believe in, believe in it after hours and hours of failure and sweat, this is what your mind agrees to, this is the best in my own ability. Not the best because someone else does it good, but the best because just deep inside something is telling you it is, and just never let go of it, ride it to the end and see how far it goes.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

2014 WC3 full strats micro post. Footy dominated

NIGHT ELF
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1. Banishmage footies. Some towers, good base.

    Elf early expo = MK 2nd mass rifles+ mercs counter expo ( vs strong DH or so )
    Elf early expo = rifle/priest pala/alchy tower push. ( vs weak early champs, panda/warden )
    Elf standart = workshop + 2 aviary. Scout the elf hard, get MK 2nd., pala/alchy 3rd. morts/gryph/copter Bank hard or expand

    maybe? = more footies, MK 2nd, ivory tower expansion. Into rifles + t3 gryphs hard./ or t2 mass pump of caster rifle.


ORC
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1. Banishmage footies. Lots of footies and quick tech.

    Orc harassing = split off and run arround. Try to keep track of him and stop him from farming anything big
    Orc leaves = farm a decent camp safely with dust quick. Save wood for rifles and upgrades.
    Orc teched no grunts = MK 2nd tier 2 expansion with some towers. rush t3 and gryphs + pala
    Orc normal = rush 2 2 rifles while powerfarming. Push and end the game asap, or raid burrows first. Paladin 2nd.
    Orc running arround backdooring = bank 50 and build secure base. Kill burrows, prepare for final push. ( with counter units )


    maybe? = force t2 expansion no matter what with banishmage + paladin or mk into mass rifles to hold it. Block peasant line wiht towers.


HUMAN
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1. Flamestrike mage footies ( late footies on bad maps ). Good strong base + many towers ( guard towers pls ). Farm as much as you can!!

    Human t1 expo = rush mass priests with dispel, and counter expo once many. Farm 3 and suicide with TP.
    Human t2 expo = wreck his base as he expands with the normal timing super all in, shredders/manapots/zeppelins/footies/breakers
    Normal t2 stuff = protect the base, scout with breaker, suicide with breakers and flamestrike. Flamestrike all of his base to death.
              farm at same time preferably with priests and militia + some other breaker etc. Level 5 flame very worth.


UNDEAD
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1. Banishmage footies or Flamestrikemage footies. Decent ammount of towers at base + good layout to camp in. Low caster, hard breaker + copter.

rifle style? or breakers upgraded solo blm farm and hit and run style? blm pala rifles t2 expo into mass mass rifles + gryphs?


the biggest strenght, is biggest weakness

2014 AKM strats micro post

UNDEAD
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1. 18 tech mass breakers mass farm + copters scout into caster adapt.

NIGHT ELF
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1. 18 tech rush invisible knights

2. 18 tech breakers casters mass farm into mortars copters expo/push

ORC
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1. 18 tech  quadra powerbuild sanctums casters breakers

2. 18 tech casters copter scout, knights morts more casters

HUMAN
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1. 18 tech quadra powerbuild sanctums priests breakers. Hit and runs + farm same time.

2. 18 tech mass knights + breakers.


Delay
Scout expos
Mass farm asap! with units!
tech and harass with units once can
bank and expo or power push!

Darius guide updates + old wc3 guides updates

 Okay so I made the Darius top lane guide today. I'll give it another read through and see for mistakes in spelling and in readability later on, really exhausted now. Really troubling to write guides to the game you haven't played in a week. SIGH I WANNA PLAY ! But just waiting for my laptop.

By the way, I always see some traffic going into the old guides so I checked them out. And gee they have very narrow information and the grammar is a bit hard to follow.. I mean it is even now, but back then it was much worse. So I'll be updating them slowly, I don't want to make them too good, as they are supposed to be what they are supposed to be "old". They tell old and not so good tactics, but its my legacy so I don't want to totally rehash them, just a small visual update, and small strategy tweak. Anyway I've done it on old contempts guide already.

 http://learn2war3.blogspot.com/2011/09/old-school-contempt-guide.html



Heres some notes to myself, play these with eskio or gaige or both? + other homies ( if they interested ) :

  • MTA DRIFT
  • rfactor drift with the touge/intial D mods.
  • NFS underground 2 drift/race etc
  • w3arena or custom maps
  • alien swarm
  • heroes 3 wake of gods, can just film the battles once we meet. Fun times
  • byond resident evil
not sure what else would be fun to play, deleted all the games which seemed like would be fun and cool, but in the end never want to touch them as they just lack that special something which truly makes me adore a game.

Btw, do the audio commentaries once you can again, was fun.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

AMAI updated

I actually didnt get a chance to test it out as this computer has no warcraft 3 on it, but Im sure it works fine. I posted about AMAI before, but the link for downloading it expired so I reuploaded it myself.

http://learn2war3.blogspot.com/2011/09/amai.html

and some replays http://learn2war3.blogspot.com/2011/09/some-reps.html

Some traffic were going into my old AMAI post, and AMAI bots are really fun to play against in general so just helping you guys out. Dont miss out!! If you can beat AMAI insane bots, you instantly become above average player. Alot of people struggle with these bots.


BTW: note to self. http://vrjp.web.fc2.com/Download.html#DUE
http://www.rfactorcentral.com/detail.cfm?ID=R.K.TRACKS

rfactor 1 touge and drifting might be pretty sweet, try it out.

The usual drifting is beautiful post


This guys channel, very very excelent. Just look at those slicing angles and steady drift. Videos are old, but oh gee! Anyway the moment I get my gaming laptop back, for sure gonna play this game. When I played it it felt like crap, driving felt goofy and off, but now that I see whats possible, I wont stop until I can do just as beautiful and slick drift myself!


These videos dont show up on the add on function properly, this is just one of them. GO TO THE CHANNEL AND WATCH OTHERS!! its in japanese so its a bit confusing, but the film making and drift sequences so good!!!!!! Im just happy theres people out there doing such amazing things, makes me feel not so lonely when it comes to my passions. Of course dont forget to listen to some proper Initial D euro beats as you watch. Hearthwarming

An example of proper Initial D eurobeat keke ; )


Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Master Yi guide update

Well I just re-released my Master Yi guide, but now on this blog instead of some kind of other website. Mostly because it constantly failed to safe and or publish so screw it, Im tired of losing my work. Guide is fairly clunky right now, Ill try to make it more readable soon enough. Anyhow I think it shows the important points of what you have to do, to play Master Yi top my style. I'll leave matchups section a mystery for each player to discover for themselfs, cuz wheres the fun of learning a new champion if I babysit you through each tough lane? : )

All you gotta know is that Master Yi beats most of the lanes, and just believe in me and go forward learning all the matchups. This way you will develop your own style of Master Yi laning, you will find your own ways to deal with hardship and grow as a player. Experience is all what matters, and this way you will get very experienced. My guide is not for some random scrubs trying to get easy elo, or some random uneducated, spiritless nooblets trying to cheese players in the top lane. This is serious guide, for people who seriously want to feel great when playing and have everything go according to their initial plans. Clean, easy, swift kills and victories. For players who want to give it their all to learn this champion and make it their own. And that is one more reason of why I m posting this guide on my own website rather than some popular guide site. I dislike the idea of people taking my work and ruining it all with their horrible personalities, only spreading the bad word about what I do. Anyway I hope the guide is interesting and you can reap some great fruits from it. I think my style is pretty refreshing to play and even losing isn't that big of a deal aslong as you fulfill your own personal goals in game.


This is what I've been listening to while writing the guide

Visualisation

I keep saying how I hate thoughts of others invading my head as it only makes me stray away from my own created path, and my own created path is the only thing that really matters, as anything ever done by anyone else usualy never helps, it is loads of fun, but essentialy useless and even kind of bad for me, nothing, but a distraction or even worse source of confusion. At same time always trying to keep an open mind, as otherwise wont learn a thing, and being respectful, honest and just listening to other ideas is mandatory to move forward, but its impossible without having a strong and confident hold of your own beliefs. More than anything I'm an expert at being confused and making enormous ammount of mistakes. But for sure I've always known the importance of writing things down, for your own sake. Many say that whats the point of creating something that is only for yourself, and the point is that such thing as yourself will never exist, as you are always ever changing person and need that strong, firm background of text, full of knowledge and experiences you felt at that current moment which you cant remake in this current instance anymore, just being and existing out there somewhere reachable. And more than anything you need to constantly remind yourself of such wisdom actually being there. I don't know how many people face the same problem I do, but I constantly forget and keep repeating the same mistakes like a dumbass, only to realise that all that I needed to know was already there.

Visualisation.   
Not sure how much of a correct term it is to use it like that, but..

Visualising or meditating you could say, just generaly make it a constant routine for yourself to have those things that I mentioned on your mind. Glimpses of knowledge available, created by your own self. Just helps so much. Having a piece of paper next to my laptop with things written to which I could deeply relate to.. so simple , yet so effective. Helped me alot to stop wasting my time away, and not in the militaristic type of way where you try to be as efficient as possible only, but in the way that made me more happy, happy because I was more aware, aware of the things which made me happy.

And so I leave this piece of text out there for future, doubting/confused me to read once again. This time atleast without dozens of swear words and horrible and even less readable grammar. : )